Presents out of ritual...

I think after more than a hour of straight Katamari Damacy play. Your brain infact starts to roll itself up into a katamari to take over your body. My brain feels like mush, but game is addicting and fun. A good way to end this fairly upseting/mediocore day.

Mothers day seems so pointless sometimes. There are some kids who go out of there way to get their mother a little something something and in return their mother showers them with love and affection. It's a big ego stroaking fest. At my house it isn't like that. I'm sure my mother was glad to get her Alice Walker novel and her "smell good oil stuff" (as per my sister), but something was lacking. I don't know what it was, but this morning when I woke up and decided that I would go to my father's house to cook dinner for my mother I was hit with intense sadness. My family isn't a very affectionate one. We even rarely show emotion (unless its anger.) Since I live with my mom (parents are divorced) I get her emotions the most. They range from: bored, tired, annoyed, sleepy, apathetic, angry, and blank. I think her moods have rubbed off on me and I hate it. I hate it so much. I want to be able to express feelings fully and just get caught up in the rapture of emotion, but I just can't. Divorced parents are probably the worst. It is even worst when neither parent is affectionate and you find your self giving presents out of ritual and not on your own accord (which is why I was very upset this morning)

::sigh:: I got that out of my system. I feel a little better now. I don't have any plans tonight nor do I have any money to "do" anything tonight. Might cut the grass for my father tomorrow, but we'll see how that goes. I guess I just needed to vent a little bit because this day hasn't been the best. One parent day down...one more to go.

Greg: "I just want a little affection that isn't too hard to ask for?"
Public: "Greg don't you have a g/f?"
Greg: "Yeah I do, but I'm not going to get to see her for 3months(max)...ugh."