Hell...I don't even know what I want for lunch today!

It's raining! It's raining? ::sigh:: It's raining...

Gloomy day in "The Boro." It's the middle of the week and things today are just so s.l.u.g.i.s.h... I'm very proud of myself because I've been going to all my classes, but I've done some recent Math and it all seems to be in vain (to a certain extent.) I'm going to lose HOPE scholarship. This doesn't make me feel as bad as I "should," but the only thing I'm worried about is the future conversation with my parents. They'll get upset because I'll pretend like I don't care (as usual), I'll tell them my plans and they'll cast doubt into my head (as usual), and I will pull through with my plan (as usual). I just hate the process of getting there. You know?

It seems that Statesboro is the place to be. Jesse Godby has already been down here for 2weeks, I saw Jeff Blair (very randomly), and I caught a glimpse of Kyle's car in the Eagle Village parking lot (He's probably going to have a ticket by the time I get back.) I don't know what the attraction is honestly. I think many of our friends think they are just going to have a BLAST when they get down here, but then are dissapointed to find out that college is just as mediocore as Douglasville (but with different people.) Whatever though...

Not too much else is going on. No thoughts on how the world works or where my life is headed. I don't care about the future and whatever happened in the past is the past. I'm living for now and I guess that's okay. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up (or what job I want this Summer.) Hell...I don't even know what I want for lunch today! It seems like I don't know anything nowadays. I've been having these weird mood cycles where I'm just like "hmmph" most of the time. I don't know why honestly. Maybe I'm just being emo, but my mood is honestly like "man...whatever." (Disclaimer: Feelings of whatever are not towards everything. i.e: Girlfriend, Friends, Videogames, Anime, etc.)

Going back to my room now to watch some Azumanga Daioh. Good stuff...

"gay'ed" by these two Jigglupuffs.

It's a new week and I'm starting out just like ever other week. Focused, determined, and willing to get my work done. When I post towards the end of the week again I can more than likely gurantee that this will not be the case. Just the way things are. I can atleast enjoy it while it last ka?

This weekend was pretty chill. It was my birthday this past Friday so thanks to all that gave me birthday wishes, special thanks to Ofray for the N.E.R.D. shirt, Steven and my mom for the "gangsta" cake, and Amanda for the future gift (I know you got me...I'm just slacking on telling you what I want >
If you're around our circle of friends then I'm sure you must know the backlash that Jesse Godby has been getting for staying at GSU for another week. When I heard that my first thoughts were like "wow...what about your job?" but then I thought about Steven's golden saying. "No moms and dads here, just friends." I'm going to put in my two cents and that's it. I don't think ya should have stayed down here, because you had a great job opportunity back home that you missed out on (and jobs are hard to come by sometimes.) It is honestly whatever, but I don't think that was the move.

Well I got atleast 2 hours until my next class so I am going to do all my other internet task for about 30 min. Do this one internet assignment for 30 min. Then read for my 2:00pm class for an hour. Sounds good in my book!

Life is steady. x

Edit (2:54pm) - I'm starting to lost interest in people other than my friends.

Farewell

R.I.P - Nintendo DS
03/24/06
"We hardly knew you."

*It's too traumatic to talk about, but do know that "Lulu" had a good life and I apperciate Will and Steven for bringing her into my life. I have to move on now...and maybe in the future I can find another DS that will make me happy.*

like green apples right now

How do I feel today? How DO I feel today?
I don't know honestly. It's almost too early to tell. I guess I could say I am doing alright. My first class got cancelled today. It is kind of a shame because I was super prepared for class today and I wrote the bonus paper (although I BS'ed it) and I was in class on time.

Greg continues to listen to his headphones and practices his katakana. As he finshes up the character KU he takes his headphones off and looks around.

Greg: Umm..do any of you know if we have class today?
Random 6 class mates: Umm...No, no, hmmm, nah,I don't know, ::shrug::
Greg: Well were any of you in class Tuesday.
Random 6 class mates: No (almost all at once.)
Greg: Wow....

Greg grabs his index cards and backpack and leaves the class room.

Pretty lame right? Yeah I know, but it is okay. I'm going back home to get me some Pancakes, some OJ, and to play some videogames with Amanda.

As you probably gathered from my morning scenerio I've been actually practicing my katakana now. I am pretty psyched. I'm trying to learn at least 5 a day. I've learned A, E, I, O, U so far and today I am working on the K's (KA, KE, KI, KO, KU). I might have to step it up if I want to start on hiragana soon.

I smell like green apples right now...yummm! Okay I am going to wrap this up...because now I am just rambling. I was suggested a band by a friend on the SCSC forums.

Band: Gregory and the Hawk
Sounds Like: Easy listening/Indie/Emo
Where: Myspace Music

Check it out. You's guys might like it. I thought it was alright, but I needed something with a little more "ummph" That's why I am listening to Alice 9 (shout out to Sara) They are pretty good. (Japanese Visual Kei Band)

Life: Going great! (except I need to step it up in my studies.)

Ms. Bakar is the shizknight!

I can't say that I'm going to miss D-ville

...yup! It's here...the end of Spring Break. I'm glad that I can say I enjoyed myself, chilled with some people I normally wouldn't have hung out with (but very much so glad I did), Went roofing all over D-ville, Got some school work done (yes...actual school work), Played mucho games, and started watching Lost. Many would find all that stuff I just typed as "boring" but its enough for me.

I can't say that I'm going to miss D-ville, but I will miss the kiddos that are in it. I will miss the roofing escapades and the late night Jittery Java jam sessions. D-ville had its up times and it had its low times, but all in all I really enjoyed myself.

Looking forward to going back to college. The school work really doesn't bother me and I am glad I had this break to get my head on straight. I feel like I can tackle future schoolwork head on! The main reason why I am happy to go back is to see Ms. Bakar. It has been way too long man. We're way overdue for some chill time and its going down today (even if its going to be at 3am in the morning.) College is looking good...oh yeah and Jesse Godby is coming down...weird? Yeah I know, but he has himself a little senorita so it makes sense (still weird though.)

Well I better go finsh packing and commence the reading on this book (The Eagle's Shadow.) Going to go crank up some Comeback Kid and practice my two step for the show (well not really...I don't need practice!) Whoever is reading this that was in D-ville this Spring Break...thanks for sharing the experience. One of the better Spring Breaks in my book.

- Got Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories and Feel the Magic for $25!
- Saw Dave Chapelle's Block Party (finally) It was great...I love Hip Hop all over again.
- Scored a Japanese cookbook and some easy recipes online for me and ma fille.

Owari

and I took a piss off of the ladder

Days are funny to me. Sometimes you have a really mediocore start or a crappy one, but by the end of the day you can find yourself standing on the train tracks staring at an oncoming train without a care in the world. It's not safe to judge a day early because there is no telling what will happen later. Today was one of those days where I thought it was just going to be "crappy". The main reason for these thoughts steams from my having to do yardwork for a very long time today. I smelt like smoke (we were burning leaves), I was tired, and I hadn't had anything to eat. Amanda called me so that was perfect time to neglect my work. We had a good conversation about how we couldn't wait to be together again and have Spring break done with. Don't get me wrong...I am loving Spring Break, but...well you know how it is. Some of DKrew went to go see "Find Me Gulity." It's a movie that isn't even out yet. It was mildy entertaining and I think Vin Diesel did a good job...psst, but what do I know about movies? Went over to Shirley's house for some conversation, but that soon ran its course and we decided to go see what Douglasville had to offer. The original plan was to just go get Godby's check cashed and go to Taco Bell, but Eric and RJ knew about this spooky text tile mill. We ventured over there and freaked ourselves out. It looked like a scene straight out of Silent Hill. We were going to climb this watertower, but we heard these loud noises coming from up in the mill. We took off and got back into Eric's car. My body is pumping now! I am no longer silent and "taking it all in." I am out in yo' face! Let's do this! Eric knows about some buildings over in the downtown D-ville area...so we go there. We climb on alot of the buildings near Fabiannos. It was so Splinter Cell like. I was rolling around and ducking behind boxes. We see this ladder that leads up to the top of a building. It is about 40ft high. On top of the ladder you can see all of D-ville. We sit up there and vibe about zombie movies and other things that would freak us out...(and I took a piss off of the ladder.) After we climbed down the building we just walked on the train treacks talking about other macho stuff. I called Amanda to tell her how I was feeling and how the night was just awesome (the phone died.) The best part for me was when I was standing on the train tracks looking in the face of an oncoming train. Like what?! Like foreal?! Yes sir...it was great. That concluded the night. We have plans to climb and explore stuff more fully next time, but we need to equip ourselves with the right material...cause you know if any hobos try and attack us...It's on!! He can't take us all!!! ::charge:: Tomorrow is a straight up chill day. I don't know what I am doing so I guess I will put myself on the free agent list (for all you that don't keep up with sports terms...that means anyone can recruit me for their entertainment...whoa...I sound like a gigalo) Look how sad my dog looks. He is always emo. You should see his wrist. x

"This is worse than the roundabout."

Mood: Whatever...

The taking off of the bandana signals the end of the day. He wrestles with his hair and after about 2minutes and a mirror look later he figures it's "less than" average, but no one is going to see it...so who cares? He rubs his fingers together for they are still sore from a night of playing Street Fighter with friends Juice and Steven. His fingers are not the only things that are sore. His stomach has taken a beaten from being force fed McDonalds. Seems like excessively eating has become a new habit for Greg.

Greg thinks about his day as whole. Very unproductive just as predicted, but by no means is this a bad thing. Saw a movie with some friends, played in the arcade for a few, played fighting games until late, called le significant other, ate until there was no more eating to be had, and washed it all down with an episode of LOST. Greg is still a little "...". There is nothing left to do he thinks. Why won't you just snap out of this mode he questions. You had fun, you saw a movie, you played games, and you hung with friends...what else could you want? Maybe it was the telephone call to his friend saying that everyone was in South Carolina at the time. Why had they gone to South Carolina and not told anyone? He tells himself he doesn't care, but he would have liked to have been a part of that.

Maybe Spring Break is starting to take its toll. It's been way to long without seeing his petite chou chou. It's funny how dependant he has grown to this, but he'd never admit it. Everything is going by so fast and even long strides are having a hard time trying to catch up with the past month. Thoughts about Sunday after 3am race through his mind. How happy he will be then.

Greg gets comfortable in his chair. Why am I staying up?, he wonders. She isn't online and its way past calling hours. That blanket is looking real comfortable and doesn't falling asleep to another episode of LOST sound appealing? His mind is playing tricks on him. Might as well get a good nights rest, he suggest to himself. You have alot of raking to do and various other chores I'm sure dad will find for you to do. He exhales at this thought and continues to type words of encourage to her. This is worse than the roundabout...heh. Looking up at his favorite corner in the computer room he tells himself...

"Life is about choices and hardships are a momentary passage of time. Stick to your values, keep discipline at your side, and stay focused."

Frou Frou's I Must Be Dreaming plays. Greg likes the vocals on this song...he really does.

"That's where Amanda's hand would be."

Mood: Loosey Goosey

It feels so good to be home after a full 24hrs of fellowship. I spent the night over at the acclaimed hotel Shirley. It was fun staying up until the wee hours of the morning with my peers (something I haven't done in a long time.) After we all woke up (many laughs, vulgarities, and yells later) I came up with the brilliant idea to go to the park. This was secretly my excuse to go skate, but when I realized that Sweet Water park had about 0% skatingblity...I just wanted to go for the hell of it.


So the young warriors traveled to a spot most comfortable for their hind quaters. After we set up camp (per se) We whipped out our fancy digital cameras and begun to take pictures of ourselves doing the wildest stuff. Amanda got alot of good ones of me doing some great stuff. There is one where I jumped in the air after doing a spin kick, but it looks like I am sitting in a chair that is 5,000ft up (no lie.) and the other one is of me doing a handstand with one hand. Sugoi!! So we just shoot the breeze and I make really weird gestures. When people would ask me why I was holding my hand out...I was like "That's where Amanda's hand would be." It got alot of good laughs, but hey what can I say. "I wish she was here."

We ate at Fabiano's later. It was great as always and I have been doing a good job with only buying one meal a day. It's good on my funds and its nice on my wallet. After our stomachs were full the homing becon beckond for us to come home (Chris Shirley's house.) I was feeling pretty home sick (a.k.a. I miss the internet life) There was too much mushy lovey action going on for me to stay any longer so I packed up my daughter (PS2) and roll bounced outta there.

At home now...and I have a long night of d/ling music, talking to Amanda, checking blogs, posting on forums, and listening to music ahead of me. ::exhale:: Man I love the internet! Enjoi the rest of the pictures from the park.

"...that very vague explination."

Mood: Drunk off of sleep.

Now that I have stayed up past the limit my body can handle, I can feel my mind shutting down. Having the pleasure of feelings your brain turn to mush and not being able to think straight is one of the perks of being on Spring Break. I'm taking advantage of my perks.

Tonight I just did the casual hangout deal. After I got done babysitting the kids (took them to a movie, "Aquamarine") I rode up to JJ's on Chapel Hill Rd. There I saw Ethan Fogus playing guitar and getting his pseudo Conor Oberst on, but more importantly I saw Erin. I was super stoaked! I hadn't seen her since New Year's and if you don't know she is an awesome le awesome female. We chatted about Kung Fu, people who tell comedian jokes as their own, and random whatevers. After not seeing our friends 20 sum minutes after they said they would be there we finally caught the hint that they were at the other JJ's.

Rolled into JJ's and reunited with all of our friends. It was good times just trying to be as random as possible and plans of a new Gameboyz side project (Boxer Rebellion), good sandwiches, and self laughs. I can say I enjoyed myself, but whenever I feel myself having too much fun I know something bad is bound to happen. (No, foreal...)

I really won't go into much detail, but let's just say that alot of the same bullshit that was going down during the winter break is happening all over again. It's none of my business, but I do think that it is unneeded drama, but whatever. What do I know anyway? If you don't know what is going on in DKrew then I am sorry for that very vague explination. We went to Waffle House (I got a Waffle and Hashbrowns)...and I didn't even get heartburn this time!! Shortly after we went to ol' Chris S. house.

At Chris S. I kind of got into a mode. It was mainly because I miss Amanda. They say that you don't know what you have until its gone. I don't know who "they" is, but he is right. I was a little bummed, but I went out for a quick fixx and then I was back to my normal self.

This break is a little harder than I would have liked it to be, but its okay. There is nothing that I can't handle with a lil discipline. I had pictures to show, but I am way too tired. In fact I just fell asleep at the keyboard and winnie the pooh is on. Way too late.

I miss my steak and potatoes. x

"...simply average"

I am so average it is disgusting. Well maybe not disgusting. That's too harsh of a word, but it is very undesirable. I keep getting low B's, C's on everything I do. All my grades are dead in the middle and it is very fustrating. I'm trying to get my grades up so I can keep HOPE schloarship because I can just see how that conversation with my parents would go if I do lose my HOPE...well it actually wouldn't be a conversation. It would just be an understanding that if I wanted to go to school next semester I would have to work all summer. Throwing me into a depress like state and not being able to hang out with my friends all summer. Fun? Not my idea of it.

Last night I opted out going to yoga so I could rest with Amanda. We both had long days and needed to take the load off. Went to CCF last night with Amanda, Allen, and Darius. No one thought I was going to go, but I did. It's not like I don't like going to CCF, but my transportation is limited. ::shrugs:: So I went and it was cool. We did little activities and we learned about the word "joy". They say that you find and define your "joy" through the tough times. I guess I am discovering joy right now, because school life = tough times.

Nothing really to do tonight. I have a list of things to do tonight so if I get all of that stuff done, then I'll feel a little better about myself. I'm just having a hard time dealing with the fact that I'm simply average. x

"...allergic to wintertime"

Alcohol takes affect ____ minutes after the first drink and hits its peak within an hour of consumption.

A. 45 min
B. 30 min
C. 10 min
D. 15 min

What? I didn't read that part. That's unfair! Maybe if I drank I would know the answer to this question, but I mos def did not read this in the book. I'm going to assume it's 15 min, but I beatcha I'm wrong.

What's that smell? Gawd! The guy next to me smells like "yuk." It's giving me a headache and is being intensified by my hungry-hungry stomach. HEY! I know the next question...I hope I don't fail.

My morning has been less than appealing, but I'm still alive so no complaints right? I need to update this thing more often, but I rarely have time to...and when I have time to I have nothing to say (tragic...) Life is still going on its normal course of greatness.

Some exchange students (Natsumi, Midori, and Gi-san) and us (Mike Kwan Do, Jeff, Tod Swainson, Ms. Bakar, Stevie B, and myself) all went to Savannah Saturday. It was pretty fun hanging out with those guys. We went to River Street, Olgethrope mall, Korean food market, and the Savannah mall. It was a full day. We ran into Amanda's mother and sister serveral times. Meeting the family of your significant other is always weird. It's like you're merging in on this area that you know nothing about. It's almost like being around a new group of friends and not getting any of the inside jokes they are saying. I scored another Naruto phone charm...and hopefully this one won't fall off.

I'm coming home this Friday and I'm pretty stoaked. I get to see all my friends that I haven't seen in a month. Kyle, Ping, Jesse, Jack (mai dog), Rachel, Janice, Jessie the gurl (I think), Micheal James (I think), and everyone else in a 100 mile radius of 3x6x xxlxam xrxxn xt.*

School: B+
Family: A-
Finance: C-
Friends: A
Love Life: A+
Self: B+

*The weird combonation of letters and x's is my street address. I encrypted it because I don't want any child rapist to come take "my sweet ass" *